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long time no post

November 20th, 2014 (02:00 pm)

I haven't posted in a long time.  LIfe has been crazy.  I have a new granddaughter, Danielle.  And my step-dad died--the only dad I've had for the last 35 years.  I've been fighting depression and trying to teach at the same time.  It's been tough.

I have an essay about my two dads I'll share with you.  But first,  I want to share the bizarre dream I had last night.  Maybe one of you dream analyzers can make sense of it.

the dream

I had a part in a movie that starred Alicia Silverstone, Mick Jagger, and Paul McCartney.  I had very few scenes with the rockers, but I had several with Alicia.  Alicia and I got into her convertable, she was driving, to pick something up and we got into an accident.  I was sore and had whiplash, but was otherwise ok.  Alicia was more hurt, or at least more reactive to the hurt, and she kept popping pain pills so we could keep filming.
Mick and Paul came and talked to me.  They were really nice.  THey answered my questions and acted like we were friends. They were worried about both of us.
Alicia had a reaction to her pain pills and went on an eating binge, eating a whole spinach wrapped turkey. The whole thing herself!  

that's it....  then the alarm went off.

My essay:

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dead Irish babies, maternity homes, thoughts

June 8th, 2014 (08:32 am)

As I read about the 800 skeletons of Irish children found in a septic tank in Tuam,  I keep thinking about my own past.  My father's birth mother was Irish.  She was seduced by her employer and got pregnant.  When it was found out, she was fired.  That girl raised her son for two years on her own.  I always wondered why, in the middle of the Great Depression,  she didn't give my dad up sooner.  But she was coming from Ireland--that place of outcast women with illegitimate children.  She kept her baby. It was with great reluctance that she finally gave my dad up when he was two--to be fostered by a good Catholic family.  She visited him regularly for five years.  My dad knew his birth mother and knew she loved him but couldn't keep him.  She eventually relinquished him for adoption, and the Fogartys adopted him when he was fifteen.

Which leads me to me . . . Antoinette had me at St. Anne's Home for Unwed Mothers in Los Angeles.  She changed her name there, so no one knew who she really was.  Now I realize that the nuns told them to change their names. I was taken away from her right after birth and put up for adoption.  She knew by entering there, adoption was the only choice.  She never knew I spent two weeks there before I was adopted.

Sure, 1960 in Los Angeles wasn't as bad as what was happening in Tuam.  And my father's birth mother had to have known about those homes in Ireland, and worse, the Magdeline Laundries.  She knew.  That's why she kept him as long as she could. It was all about shaming.  Shame.  What is it about the Catholic culture that was/is so grounded in shame?    Why were the women who got pregnant and the innocent children who were born to them the targets of this shame, and not the men?  I look at all those poor children in Tuam and other 'Homes' in Ireland, and I feel far too close to their pain. I barely started reading about the atrocities committed to the children of maternity homes in Australia.  I had to stop reading because it was too disturbing. I am not very far removed from it.

I found Antoinette when I was 18, and she continues to be my very good friend and a spare grandma to my children.  I'm forever grateful to be adopted by the family who adopted me,  as my father was adopted by his parents.  I'm grateful I wasn't aborted and that I was given life.  But I don't understand this society of shame.  This mark of bastardy.  If any great thing has come out of the societal evolution of the last forty years, it's increased acceptance. The traditional family may be hurting, bastardy might have become so common that it happens more often than not in some areas, but at least the children aren't growing up in shame.

Bastard born and proud of it.

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April 2nd, 2014 (09:36 am)

I may have to go to this one . . . Captain Mal, Jayne,  and Horatio Hornblower...

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Heh heh heh ....

February 10th, 2014 (11:34 am)

Today's playlist . . .

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January 8th, 2014 (07:49 pm)

Since I did it before,  I've resolved to do it again--swim, that is.  Three days a week.  So far,  so good.  I've swum laps for 30+ minutes three times since New Years.    I had lost the weight, then blowing my shoulder made it hard to swim . . . then the hernia/ abdomen surgery,  then the shoulder surgery, then the total knee replacement.  I'm finally well enough to swim again . . . but i have to lose it all over again too.  but I'm not concentrating on the weight.  Just swimming and feeling better.

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Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Cool Yule, and warmest blessings of the season, my friends.

December 16th, 2013 (08:40 am)

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Emma and a quick dash in

December 5th, 2013 (12:00 pm)

Knightly is definitely showing signs of being smitten. I looked it up, and there really IS celery soda.  Have any of you ever tried it?

Yes, I've been in hiding awhile.  I have been lurking and reading a bit of you all.

Our concert at Abravanel was awesome Tuesday night.  Now I'm off for six weeks from MCO.     Am considering trying out for MoTab one more time this summer.

Love to all of you


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day of . . .

February 4th, 2013 (09:15 pm)

Amy had her gall bladder successfully removed today.

My father-in-law's book came out today.  Vanity press, but still cool.

And LYDIA Bennett didn't know!  I knew it!

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I'm back

November 8th, 2012 (11:15 am)

Now that the election's over, I've come out of hiding.  It was getting too intense for me.  So, anyone have any well-written Harry Potter(Malfoys, Blacks, Marauders, Weasleys, Founders, etc.), Hunger Games, Jane Austen, Ender,  Horatio Hornblower, Dollhouse,  or Firefly fan fiction to recommend? I could use a healthy dose of escapism.  

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dressing your truth, reflecting your energy...

August 2nd, 2012 (07:28 am)

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July 3rd, 2012 (12:48 am)

I went to bed over 2 hours ago.  After 2 hours of scratching and tossing and drumming rhythms on my tummy,  I surrendered.  I'm up.  Knee surgery is in 9 hours.  Too much on the brain to sleep.

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I'm published

April 28th, 2012 (12:24 pm)

subscribe for free, then find me under contributing authors.

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April 26th, 2012 (12:22 pm)

INterview went really, really well.... Now I'm just praying that I'll come out on top.   They said I should know by this weekend.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for your prayers, your good wishes, and your crossed digits.

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interesting article from byutv

February 14th, 2012 (12:02 pm)

Valentine's Day is predictable, right? Roses, chocolates, a cheesy Hallmark card and maybe a nice dinner. No big surprises here.

Not quite. There's actually much more to this lovey-dovey holiday than hugs and kisses. Here are five interesting things you may not have known about the real Valentine's Day:

1. Valentine was the patron saint of epilepsy and plague

No one knows for sure who the original Valentine was (there were up to ten men who were known as Saint Valentine), but the traditional figure was a Christian martyr who became the Catholic Church's patron saint of love, happy marriages and engaged couples, but also of epilepsy, plague, fainting and bee keepers.

2. Valentine's Day should be celebrated in May, not February

The first recorded association of Valentine's Day with romantic love is in Parlement of Foules, a 1382 poem by Geoffrey Chaucer. He wrote:

For this was on seynt Volantynys day
Whan euery bryd comyth there to chese his make. 

("For this was Saint Valentine's Day, when every bird cometh there to choose his mate.")

Chaucer wrote the poem to honor the first anniversary of the engagement of King Richard II of England to Anne of Bohemia. The only problem is that birds don't mate in mid-February. At least one expert claims that Chaucer may have been referring to May 2, the celebration of Valentine of Genoa.

3. The first Valentine's Day keepsake was a severed head

Sort of. Saint Valentine's actual head was preserved in the now-defunct abbey of New Minster in England. But there's no evidence that Saint Valentine was very popular before Chaucer's poem. Saint Valentine's celebration didn't differ from the celebrations of many other saints, and no church was ever dedicated to him (notwithstanding the head).

4. Teachers are more loved than spouses

In the U.S., teachers receive the most valentines, followed by children, mothers, wives and sweethearts. 

5. Utah Utes should avoid Saudi Arabia on Valentine's Day

In Saudi Arabia, religious police have regularly banned the sale of Valentine's Day products, telling shops to remove all red items. In 2008, this ban created a black market of roses and wrapping paper. Note to Utah Utes: avoid Saudi Arabia on February 14. No red allowed!

6. Most women wouldn't forgive a man who forgot Valentine's Day

Feel free to forget birthdays. But according to one poll, 53% of women in America would dump their boyfriends if they didn't get them anything for Valentine's Day. Ouch.

7. In some places, men receive Valentine's Day gifts, not women

In Japan, women are expected to give chocolate and other gifts to men on Valentine's Day. However, polls in the United States show that more than one-third of men would prefer not receiving a gift on Valentine's Day. (Less than 20% of women feel the same way.)

8. Your neighbor's pet may get more attention this Valentine's Day than you

According to one study, more than nine million pet owners buy gifts for their pets on Valentine's Day. 

Regardless of the trivia and polls and weird history behind Valentine's Day, let's just agree that it's a fun holiday that serves as an additinal reminder to celebrate the ones we love. Who cares if the real Valentine was the patron saint of plague. Bring on the mushy greeting cards!

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I'm surviving... and living on chocolate cake

February 10th, 2012 (02:06 pm)

I had two different students bring me chocolate cake today.  Sweet kids.

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January 27th, 2012 (02:03 pm)

We are studying Jane Austen in Brit Civ right now, and I let every kid choose one JA novel to read.  All of them were chosen by somebody except for Emma and Mansfield Park.  SO we just finished watching the Romola Garai/ Johnny Miller version of Emma.  When Knightly and Emma finally admitted how they felt about each other,  my boys stood up and cheered.  Not my girls.  My boys.  They want to see MORE Jane Austen movies.  And one boy has decided he is going to take his wife on a carriage ride after they get married just like Emma and Knightly did.  Dang, gotta love Paradigm High.

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I thought I was a beta tester . . .

September 22nd, 2011 (06:10 am)

So why Haven't I heard from Pottermore yet?  Anyone else who got in on Day 6 still waiting?

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lipotripsy Tuesday

August 11th, 2011 (03:15 pm)

 I want it over with now.

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Went back to work today

August 8th, 2011 (08:49 pm)

 It was nice to see everyone.  And some graduates from last year showed up to help me move my stuff across the hall to the new classroom..  That's the good news

In other news,  my stomach's been hurting for five days.  Can't sleep on it, gnawing, awful hurt.  Middle and lower right side of abdomen, with pain wrapping around to my back. Went to insta care on Saturday.  Doc thought it looked like gastroenteritis, but did lab work anyway.  I got the results of the tests today.   My urine is bloody, but my white cell count is normal.  I get an ultrasound before work tomorrow. Yippee.  :(

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quick post

July 28th, 2011 (05:55 pm)

 I realized...
that Adam and Eve were the first parselmouths.

Summer is an amazing June full of music and culminating in singing all over Manhattan, broadway musicals, Harry Potter, writing, mourning, watching cars die--not just people, hugging grandchildren, goodbyes to children moving away, gardens, celebrations, fresh fruit, vertigo, and too short.

Vacation ends for me in 10 days.

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